A letter from my 17 year old self

February 1, 2021

Ten years ago, I wrote a letter to myself.

It was one of those time capsule assignments given to me during my senior year of high school.

I was 17. Full of acne, insecurities, and braces, but also full of hope.

Today, I found it, last opened the first time I got it in the mail five years ago. I must've made a copy of it and slipped it into my drive for safe keeping which I don't recall at all, but I'm glad I did.

The last five years since reading this feels like ages compared to the first.

But the hope and longing remains.

There's this deep desire to celebrate and honour my younger self because I know for sure I didn't do it enough during the time. I didn't know how to show it mainly because I didn't think I did enough to deserve it.

And tens years later, that's something I, You, We, still have a difficult time with now. So this is me saying thank you for doing the hard unrelenting work when it wasn't the easiest.

I hope I'm making you proud.

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As you read this, I hope you’re happy.  But if you’re not, if something is troubling your mind, don’t worry it will pass.  Trust me.  You’re going to experience very strong feelings, emotions, in the next few years.  You’ll feel lost.  You’ll feel on top of the world.  Don’t forget those emotions.  It means you’re alive.  Be grateful.  Let go of those that are toxic and appreciate those that make your life better.  Remember this is your life and you’re the person in control of it.  You decide who stays a part of it.  Be proud of the person you are. The way you treat yourself dictates how you’ll treat the world around you.  So always be kind to yourself and forgive. 


Here is a list of things I want you to do:


1. Strive to be a better version of you.  

2. When you want something, go for it, unapologetically.  

3. Do everything in moderation; it keeps you happy and sane and makes the world a better more harmonious place.  Remember the balance between creation and consumption should be as close to equal as possible.   

4. Be open-minded.

5. TRAVEL. 

6. Learn a new language.  Pick up an instrument.  

7. Read history books, current events, online scientific journals, anime—Anything, Just Read.  

8. Stay hungry.  There’s a wealth of information out there, go consume it.  

9. Be a leader.  

10. Make time for yourself.  

11. Exercise.    

12. BE PRESENT.  

13. Remember you are not a commodity.  No one owns you.  Not your family, not any man.  

14. Go to Quora.com and read their threads.  People give awesome, inspirational advice on there.  It’s one of my favorite websites.  

15. Don’t take out more than one debit and one credit card (emergency uses only).  It is never selfish to say “No”.  Make a savings account. And actually put money in there.  

16. You don’t always have to be nice, but always be kind. 

17. Be humble.  

18. Don’t ever apologize for crying or not crying.  

19. Honor your life.  Take care of your mind, body, and soul. 

20. Remember, you are the most important person in your life.  Love yourself.

I’m very proud of all your accomplishments and I know that you’re meant for big things.  And by “big things”, I mean whatever makes you feel really good.  And by “good”, I mean whatever makes you want to jump out of bed in the morning and start doing it, especially when it’s not easy.  Following your passion takes hard work.  It’s definitely not easy but it’s worth it.  You’re about to head off to college.  Enjoy it.  You will grow so much as a person.  Embrace every moment.

your biggest fan,

Jenny

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